There are times when I don’t understand the things that are happening in my life. Sometimes, circles go on bouncing on me and I get dizzy. At times, I feel like a drop in the ocean when I want to be the ocean. I would feel carefree in a moment, and different the next.
Are You there God? I know You are. And I know you hear my thoughts.
God, I wonder why things happen in a way I do not want them to happen. I wonder how people could betray us in an instant. I wonder how and why they could grab what we have in our hands already. I wonder how someone I love could hurt me without mercy. I wonder why they keep trying to steal my joy. But yeah they can try. And they will always try. And I will continue to let them try. Even though I don’t get it, God.
Are You there God? It’s me Azir. Remember when I cried out to You the first time? In the same way I’m crying to You right now? I said why can’t I fathom things? The river seemed too long and the waves to strong for me to bear. While the vastness of the sky seemed to be satisfying, the roaring of the thunders and the flashing of lightnings overwhelms me to the point of surrender. But somehow, now I think it’s kind of good. Right God? But the tears voluntarily flow.
You said:
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways”. (Isaiah 55:8)
And “It is my glory to conceal a matter”. (Proverbs 25:2)
God, many times I don’t understand the things going in my life, but I know I don’t really have to understand them. I just have to let them be, and let myself be the ‘me’ You intended me to be, and let You move Your hands for me. Let me say now it’s me, Your Azir. I know You’re there God.
Are You there God? I know You are. And I know you hear my thoughts.
God, I wonder why things happen in a way I do not want them to happen. I wonder how people could betray us in an instant. I wonder how and why they could grab what we have in our hands already. I wonder how someone I love could hurt me without mercy. I wonder why they keep trying to steal my joy. But yeah they can try. And they will always try. And I will continue to let them try. Even though I don’t get it, God.
Are You there God? It’s me Azir. Remember when I cried out to You the first time? In the same way I’m crying to You right now? I said why can’t I fathom things? The river seemed too long and the waves to strong for me to bear. While the vastness of the sky seemed to be satisfying, the roaring of the thunders and the flashing of lightnings overwhelms me to the point of surrender. But somehow, now I think it’s kind of good. Right God? But the tears voluntarily flow.
You said:
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways”. (Isaiah 55:8)
And “It is my glory to conceal a matter”. (Proverbs 25:2)
God, many times I don’t understand the things going in my life, but I know I don’t really have to understand them. I just have to let them be, and let myself be the ‘me’ You intended me to be, and let You move Your hands for me. Let me say now it’s me, Your Azir. I know You’re there God.